我的存在对你来说重不重要？



还有多少人记得我的存在？



我们到底还有多少时间在一起？

many things happen.
our distance is far or near,only we know.
i love the way we spend our day.
just like how we used to before we break.
now we gave each other one more chance.
i'll treasure it.
i'm not giving up on you so easily.
even though i don't know when will you be leaving me again,
but i hope it won't happen so fast.

i love the way we laugh together.
i love the way you hold my hand tight.
i love the way you get angry with me.(i know you are just playing)
i love the way when i feel our hearts are close to each other.
i love the way you call me baby hare.(and you are my baby bunny)
i love all the things we had now.

i know i'll get jealous when i know u are going out with guys.but please forgive and understand.because i love you,that's why i'll feel that.

i hope i'll be the one who make you smile and feel loved.
i know i wont be the one who will spend your future with.
just let me stay by your side,be your knight,till you find your prince.

P.S: If no one wants you,just remember,i will always want you.





现在我只想要给你幸福。

I miss.....

I miss the way you used to call me baby.
I miss the way you tell me you love me.
I miss the way you let me know how important I am to you.
I miss the way you make me smile.
I miss the calls we have every night.
I miss sitting on the sofa and watch dvds with you.
I miss cooking lunch or dinner with you.
I miss having you sleeping soundly beside me.
I miss you hugging me to sleep.
I miss hugging you from the back and smell your scent.
I miss looking at you when you sleep.
I miss you digging my ears for me and I dig yours.
I miss opening my cupboard and see your clothes.
I miss going to the supermarket with you.
I miss walking you up to your house.
I miss having tea with you at secret recipe.
I miss you pinching me.
I miss you biting me.
I miss spending all my Thursday,Friday and Sunday with you.
I miss the messages you send me.
I miss taking neo prints during our anniversary.
I miss the way you hold my hand.
I miss carrying all your shopping bags and your bag.
There are just too much things I miss about you.
Maybe these are things which you no longer miss anymore,maybe you might not even think of me.
But one thing for sure,I still miss you.
I don't know how long will I take to not to miss you so much.
I don't know what will we become.
Even if we won't be together anymore,I'll still think of you.
Cause for once,you stand a very important place in my heart and my life.



25 more days....




也许我应该学会先爱自己，才去爱你。

feeling shag from work.getting tired very easily nowadays.maybe getting old le. things start to happen at rsh. whatever they says tends to have a hidden meaning.just that they think i dont know.sigh.guess life will be tough in taka.


have never remove the ring that we have when we are together. wearing it around my neck,hoping one day we could put it on our fingers again. hoping i will get the answer i want.i know i sound foolish,but i wish things between us can start all over again.

28 more days to get the answer i want.i hope is the answer i want to hear.




我不想失去爱你的资格。你是我想要的幸福。

My body had been giving me problems these few day or should i say weeks. My right knee had been hurting badly.cant bend and cant walk fast.scare i tear my knee ligament. dont know should see a doc or not.just afraid to know the truth.lower back had been hurting too.just too afraid that it will affect my legs. i still got lots of places to go and things to see,dont wish that there are problems with my legs. maybe as we grow,our body tends to get weaker.


missing someone,but dont know does she feel the same too. thought of starting afresh.but will we be able to? time will tell. if we are meant to be together,no matter what,we will still be together.
there will be only one mrs er,and that is her.







不想那么快就失去走路的权利。

just came back not long ago.had a date with jazreel.morning went back to office to settle some things.den meet her after her work.when she call me to see where am i and just nice we are on the same train.went shopping with her to see if she can get any nice things.awhile later,went to have dinner,and then cont with the shopping.since the night is still young,we decide to catch a movie but then we cant make it for the time slot.so end up went to play pool.just like the very first time we played,she trashed me.but it's fun playing with her.went to find a spot to sit and chill and enjoy the night.love her company.lost contact for so long but yet she's still the one i used to know.she still know how to make me smile using simple ways.she let me find back the feeling of dating back again.we're looking forward for our next date.should be somewhere near ba.




原来快乐可以很简单。

these few days damn tired. going back to office to have meeting at night and morning got to work at rsh.geez.i'm dying soon.last week went to japan for a short business trip.even though it's short but learn alot of things.seen alot new things,know alot of new people.starting to get my life back on track.looking forward for the next business trip.hope can stay for a few more days.
still not very use to it when wearing formal clothing to attend meetings.damn weird.but slowly i will get use to it.

some old friends contact me back.yiling invited me to her bday chalet,dont know wat to wear that day.hmmmm,thinking.


recently recieve a message from a nobody,saying i miss you,stranger.dont bother to reply as it's a waste of sms.

shall update more if i have time.guess i should ask my boss to give me a break.night time for go meeting will die de.




一个人生活其实挺好。

In memories.....

I'm tired le.tired of hanging on.too much guessing.she tends to hide things and do things behind my back.i try to tolerate everything but i couldn't find any more excuses to lie to myself.it's like to her,spending money on me is like caring for me.that was not i really wanted.all i ever needed was the truth in her voice,the cares that we use to have,the love that we gave,the trust that we cherish the most and the dreams that had fade away.


in her eyes,my care and concern had become controlling.i no longer know how to care for her anymore.for whatever i do,she tends to think otherwise.

for why i chose to remain a stranger to her,is to protect myself.for when i think of her,it reminds me of all the scars she left in my heart,the dreams she chose to shatter,oath that had broken.after all these,i could no longer imagine myself as a friend,for it's too painful for me.

to her,i maybe heartless.i've hurt her.but i don't want to take the risk of getting hurt again.i'm locking up my heart to find back who i used to be,friends that i've lost and the pride i must regain.i've faith that in my next relationship,it will be better,i'll be happier and never to lose myself again.



3rd of september 1.40am,i've woke up from a dream that lasted 16 months and 4 days.