i'm tired.
i want to let go and move on.
but i just can't.


didnt went home for two days.so i shall blog what happen on friday and saturday.

friday and saturday.
didnt went to school,because i'm fucking tired.jingjing message me asking me what time will i be in school.then i told her i'm not going.ask her to ask huimin want to meet out later or not.but huimin is half asleep.so told her to call me when she's fully awake.went back to sleep again.12 plus,huimin called and i am still sleeping.so decided to meet at 3 at PS.meet them,went to starbuck,and start doing our end of year project.jingjing help to give us idea.do till 4 plus like that,ben came to meet us.went to slack first,because virus meeting us at 6.walk around PS.then went to find virus at the arcade.so surprise that he was with jade.haha.what a small world.went over to cine to meet nika.suppose to meet her 7,but she came late.me and jingjing went to buy subway and the rest eat at the kopitiam.slack there till 9 plus reaching 10.went over to hereen,because meeting cynthia,as i told her i will send her home after her work.she came out at 10 plus.she say she can slack with us for awhile.the rest of us will be going over to jingjing's house.so ask her to come along.went to her house and slack.ben and nika went off at 12.because ben need to go back to camp for duty the next day and nika is because of the girlfriend.then cynthia went off at 12.30.me and virus send her down,cuz we're going to get some beer.after she board the cab,me and virus went to buy beer.i was feleing down.so i drank alot,and i got drunk.stupid me,got drunk because of a girl.i puke,and i feel terrible.i just want to numb myself.i cant control my emotion,and i cry.jing jing they all keep comforting me.i feel terrible.around 3 plus like that they went to sleep.i lie on the sofa and virus sleep on the floor.jingjing and huimin went into the room.i cant sleep,so played virus ds till 6 plus,then i fall asleep.7 plus i heard someone opening the door,i was like thinking who is that,then it was jingjing's dad.i quickly wake virus up,and he went into the room to get jingjing.we dint expect him to be home.cuz he told jingjing he will only be back on sunday morning.went back to sleep when jingjing's dad went to his room.sleep till 9 plus 10 plus like that,wake virus up again,and we went into jingjing room to disturb.jingjing using the com and huimin still sleeping.so we start disturbing her.went to little india station.cuz jingjing meeting someone there.the person buy something from jingjing,so she need to pass it to her.the girl look cute.from nan yang.haha.after that went to PS to have our brunch.virus treat me eat mos.so nice of him right.haha.after that went home.
got home at about 2 plus.rest awhile,and i call jingjing and huimin see they want to come out or not.cuz i'm feeling down this few days.haiz.so they say ok.i'm so sorry to disturb them ya.meet jing jing at AMK at 9.went to lower pierce to slack.i love that place.it's quiet and when you look up into the sky,you can see alot of stars.sit there,have a chat.she told me,it's time to give up on the girl.no point holding on.maybe i will slowly let go.huimin meet us at AMK at 12 plus.actually she want to meet us at lower pierce,but we told her it's drizzling.so meet us at AMk after she meet her friend.i don't feel like going home.so huimin ask me want to go her house not,i say ok.so went to her house.chat abit,watch abit of the L word.then i'm kind tired,so went to sleep.today wake up at 10 plus.her mum made breakfast for us.after eating,we finsh up our project.then leave the hous at 12 plus,and i headed of home.now i'm tired want to go and have a afternoon nap.haha.

so that's all for now.night.


you hate liar,but i lie to protect myself.