i still like you.do you know that?


didn't update my blog due to the internet connection.couldn't connect to it.so i shall update today.

hmm,27th nov,tuesday.didn't went for class due to my backache.it has been aching for almost 2 weeks.huimin didn't went to school too.so she call me at 8 plus when i'm still sleeping.so i told her i shall call her later.wake up at 12 plus.call her and she ask me want to go out study for exam or not.so i say ok,since i got nothing too do at all.meet her 2 at Plaza Singapura.as usual she's late.wait for her for like 20 min.when she reached,pei her go long john eat.after that we went to starbuck to study.jing jing come and meet us at 4 plus.study for a while more den we went to play arcade.hmmm,the rest i forgot already.memory start to get worst.

yesterday,28th nov,went to school at 9 plus.and it end at 11 plus.me and huimin have lunch in school.and went down to orchard to meet jingjing.actually is meet at 1 but then we change to 1.30.because jingjing need to get her stud for her lips at her uncle shop.but he doesn't have the one she want.so she meet us at far east and get it there.after that we went for a job interview at DFS.but when we went in,we got the feeling of not working there and we also dont know need to call the HQ and ask bout the job.so we give that up. went to PS and apply for starbuck job.they are hiring part-time.so we try our luck there.so we have to wait for them to call.
after that went to bugis.because jingjing need to go and get her pay.after she got her pay went to pei her eat at burger king and we went back to AMK for our arcade game.went home at 8 plus.talk on the phone with cynthia at 12 plus.and went to bed at 2 plus.

today,29th nov,haha.didn't went to school today.wake up at 9 plus.accompany mummy for breakfast.the meet cynthia at 11.45 at kovan.but she is late.then we went down to bugis,because she want to go and get her clothes.after that we go back to my place.she need to bathe at my house because her house water supply will be cut off due to the Block upgrading thing.cook her something to eat.scare she hungry.lend her my digital camera,bag and watch.because she going chalet today.accompany her down to hougang station to meet her friend because they going down to chalet together.went home after that.

that's all for the day.



if i'm your stead,i will cherish you and never break your heart.

went to school at 9.teacher is sick.so she wont be here.slack there and surf the net.since nothing to do,ma and huimin decide not to attend the afternoon lesson.she call my meimei,jervena,ask her to meet us at bishan.went to the singapore safety driving centre before meeting my mei.because huimin want to book her exam date.went there,then i decided,i want to go and take my car license when i start working next month.after that went to bishan to meet jervena.have our lunch at mos burger and we went to catch a movie.we watched HERO.it's nice.those who haven watch must go and watch it.i thought it's gonna be boring,but after watching it realise it damn good.i learn something from the movie.if you have determination,there's nothing you can't do.
after that we went to AMK to have our dinner.for our dessert,we ate snow frost.it 's nice.share the strawberry one with jervena.because she want to eat that.slack awhile and we cab home.

hmmm,today the poem is"the letter i'll never send"

the letter i'll never send,
would calmly ask you why,
you broke my heart in two,
and told my love goodbye.

if i ever sent this letter,
it would sweetly state,
you tangled up your destiny,
and interrupted fate.

the letter i will not write,
would casually inquire,
how can you live without me-
i was your one desire.

if you ever recieve this letter,
it would politely say,
you need me in your life now,
you can't go on this way.

the letter i'll never send,
would then be briskly signed,
"your one and only love"
you know-the one you left behind.


that's all folks.








i'll never leave you.i promise.

boy meets girl

stay home the whole day.and watch tv the whole day.so nth much happen.

share a poem then.it's called"Boy meets Girl"

boy meets girl

Boy:
she waits by the sea,throwing pebbles time after time.
a photo frame on her lap,but she was gazing.
at the crystal clear blue sea,only to find nothing.
Nothing-execpt time.

Girl:
he disappeared in a gust of wind.
where are you?wy did you leave me?
what wrong have i done?
he left me no time.
no time for my answer.

Boy:
sobbing now by herself,the sky mirroring her mood.
then lightning was seen and thunder roared.
the rain poured-but still,she cared.
her heart was breaking...only the pain inside her felt real.
nothing else matter execpt....

Girl:
i looked up slowly when a hand was placed gently on my shoulder.
standing up,i saw him and hugged him tightly-never wanting to let go.
for this moment will soon last-i know.
he felt so real..a mirage?
i could see his face in the light from the peir.
so full of love and longing.
his green eyes were like pools of warm water.
deep enough for me to drown in.
he pulled me to his warm,strong chest.
and delicately placed his lips against mine.

Boy:
i wanted to tell her i love her deeply.
but a woman of wealth i had to marry.
a lightning suddenly struck her.
she died never knowing the truth ever.
that my life is nothing without her.


that's all for today.




there will be two pairs of footprints on the sand when you are happy.one is yours,and one is mine.but there will only be one when you are upset or tired.because i will carry you on my back and carry on walking.

yesterday didn't blog due to the internet connection.i can't connect to the stupid internet.
didn't went to school.meet huimin at school there,then we go ps to wait for jervena and virus.me and huimin planning to do our project today.sit at starbuck to wait for jervena and virus to come.when they reached,went to eat long john.then we decide to go to the arcade for a while.after that we when to bugis to do our project.after that ben come and meet us.pei him eat dinner at subway,and then it;s time for dota.play till 11 then all go home.walk all the way from parklane to dobhy ghaut station.me,ben and virus took the same train.they take till sengkang and take 27 to tamp.i walk home.cuz i realise the last bus from sk interchange to my place is gone.reached home at about 12.


today was fine at first.didn't went out.until my mum came home.fight with her,cuz i never go and visit my grandma.seriously i don't like to go up,cuz i will see all my aunts and they will start saying"aiyo,why dress like guy,blah blah blah."sometimes i feel like slapping them.i know they find me useless.can't study well all that.so what.it's my life ya.don't blame my parents for not teaching me the right things.talk to me.bitches.so what i'm in ite,so what i don't like to go up.do they have he right to tell me what to do?NO!so what if i am a lesbian?is that anything wrong with it?all because of them,i always end up fighting with my mum.they keep blaming her for not teaching me good.let me stop studying for a year,all those things.if one day grandma happen to pass away,i will not treat them as relatives anymore.i don't need them to teach me what to do,or what is right and what is wrong.i like the way i am now.so don't bothers me,care for your own kids.if i can't tolarate them anymore,i will go up and fight it out with them.so don't test my patient.




fuck off.i live my own life.

normal school day.as usual,i'm late again.haha.lazy to go to school ya.didnt do much in school today.all we do is discuss our year end project.got to hand up the proposal on monday.so we did some discussion on what to do.tomorrow got to do the storyline with huimin.went to slack with friends.the headed for home.8 plus,cynthia message me ask me want to accompany her for dinner or not.since i got nothing to do,then i meet her at kovan.i reach there at 8.35 like that.then she's not there yat.so i wait and wait and wait.for almost an hour.her friend,kelly,came along too.waited for kelly bf,melvin to come and have dinner at the coffeeshop.they are cute couple ya.walk cynthia home then i go home.
tomorrow i'm not going to school.finish all my work already,go there also abit pointless.so might as well stay home and sleep.haha.

hmm,it's been a while i post a poem out.so i shall post one today.
it's called "the kiss"

the kiss

it happen so quickly,
the world must have shook.
i'd always hoped it would happen,
like it does in the book.

she looked at me softly,
and then touched my hair.
i felt so special,
like she really did care.

she leaned over slowly,
my heart upped its pace.
right at that moment,
we were face to face.

when her lips touched mine,
i thought i would melt.
her kiss was the sweetest thing,
i have ever felt.


that all for today.







no matter what happen,i won't let you get hurt.i will shelther you from all the harms.

today went for lifeskill lesson.nothing much to do there.class ended early.so me,huimin and syed go eat lunch.there's a 3D lesson at 1pm.but me and huimin don't feel like going.because it's super boring.in the end we never go but syed did.
like i say yesterday,we are going to the gym today.and we did.went to YIO CHU KANG for our gym.reach there at 12 .45.start working out.and we end at 1.45.after that we went bishan to get a bite.after that we went to the arcade.play the drum thingy again.i want to learn how to play drum ya.after the game we headed for home.because we are very tired.we cab home again.
reach home at 4 like that.bathe and i lie on my bed.want to take a nap.6 plus my mum message me.first time in my life,i recieve a message from her.haha,she's learning how to sms.back to sleep again.wake up at 9.20 to have my dinner.my mum had been knocking on my door for don't know how long just to wake me up for dinner.had my dinner,watch abit of tv and now in my room using com.
tomorrow going to school.i'm afraid i will have body ache tomorrow due to the gym today.have nont been working out for a long while.gonna go again soon.





my shoulder is your personal pillow.

damn tired

didn't have class today.but stil need to go to school to finish up my assignment ya.meet huimin for breakfast first at AMK hub.as usual,she's late.because jervena sleep until very late ya.meet her at 9,they come at almost 10.never mind i wait den.when they come,we went to eat mac breakfast.after jervena go home to do her project and both of us go to school.
reach school and realise not much people come.only 7,including us.so do my assiginment.finish up quite fast,because i got all my pictures ready.jannson they all watch the movie"the weather man",so i also watch.finish that movie,only 1 plus.then huimin say want to go daiso.so i ask her want go my house first,because i want to get change ya.so she say ok.
reach home bath,get change and ya show her my old photo ya.then we set off to go to ps.reach there at 2 plus.walk walk around and go daiso see things.we decide,next time we buy ingredients and go her house or jervena house cook.haha.our stupid ideas ya.went to have our lunch at the foodcourt.eat finish the we go slack at starbuck.hmmm,the coffee is nice.after that we decide to go bugis slack.went to play arcade.first time play the drum thingy,interesting game.next time sure play again.we went to look for a little flower thing,she say want to buy for jervena,so we went to buy it.walk around,then we go back bishan.had our dinner there.we ate tori bento.while eatting,we saw the stall beside got sell dessert.so after eating our bento,we go and get our dessert.nice dessert.i eat tang yuan and she eat the peanut paste"hua shen hu".walk around,then i saw this thing i dont know what it's call ya.the one where you put in money then you can turn the thing one.i went to turn one sitch hp thing.quite cute.went to arcade to play again.after that we cab home at 9 plus 10 like tat.today sure slack alot and eat alot.haha.
we both tomorrow going gym to work out,because we ate alot ya,scare fat.haha.
poor jervena cannot cone along because she need to finish her project.haha.
got to wake up early tomorrow,cuz got lifeskills lesson tomorrow.got to sleep now.




i'll always be right behind you.when you need me,just turn around,and i'll be there.

monday blues.hate monday ya.got to wake up early for school.lesson start at 9 and i left home at 9.haha.late for school of course.reach there at about 9.30.today lesson is damn bored.same old thing again.we got to shoot a video of our school,and we had done that many times.but stil got to do ya.went out to start shooting at 10 plus came back at 11 plus.we are the first few who came back first ya.so sit there and wait for the rest to come back.12 plus we went for lunch.after lunch,miss fee is not taking the class,so the two hongkong teacher take over.they show us what we shoot just now and give us comment on it.then got one group that likda piss the guy teacher off.first time see him so angry.but cannot blame hime for being angry,the group didn't do their best ya.class end at 4.headed home straight.

mummy didn't work,because she and bro went to visit my aunt's new born baby.she went to buy a new phone.i was like wth,your phone better than mine.the first thing she tell me is,"help me put songs in and teach me how to sms". i was like,'can i don't',and the answer is NO.spend almost 3 hours doing all those for her.ya,she need more practise on sms.haha.

now is 11.03 and i'm doing nothing except blogging.bored.tomorrow still got school.don't feel like going but no choice,need to finish my project and i have not even started on my script writing for my year end project.gonna have a busy week.








maybe i can only be your guardian angel

WAYNE IS DEAD!

i am dead.my heart is dead.maybe it's better for me this way.i shall learn not to feel a thing,not to care,and maybe heartless.then maybe slowly,i'll walk out of your life.
you never look at my way.it hurts.making myself feel dead is the only way out.
so ya,WAYNE IS DEAD FROM NOW!

today is just bored.stay home the whole day.so ya,nothing happen.

你笑着说

他是朋友

但你眼中太温柔

我的不安

那么沉重

只有你不懂

他霸占了你的心中属于我的角落

所以你说我们不是你和我

是我想太多

你总这样说

但你却没有真的心疼我

是我想太多

我也这样说

这是唯一能安慰我的理由

他霸占了你的心中属于我的角落

所以你说我们不是你和我

是我想太多

你总这样说

但你却没有真的心疼我

是我想太多

我也这样说

这是唯一能安慰我的理由

我想我没有错怪了什么

虽然你不说

或许错在我太晚我才懂爱了你太多

是我想太多

你总这样说

但你却没有真的心疼我

是我想太多

我也这样说这是唯一能安慰我的理由

wo zhen de hen xi huan ni.ni zhi dao ma?

woke up at 12 plus.ate my breakfast and went back to sleep.haha.i know i'm lazy..haha..2 plus one idiot call me.wake me up.pei her chat.then ask her out to accompany me for lunch and dinner.so went to meet cynthia at her house there.she told me she very full because she just ate a dumpling.i was like....nvm.she say accompany me go eat.i feel weird when someone is watching you eat ya.went to walk walk around after that.then we decide to go to the playground.before we went there,she bought a cheesecake and bubble tea there.sat there,talk,see her eat,play the swing and disturb her.haha.send her home at 8.on the way home,we keeping playing.she's 17 and she don't look like one.like a kid.keep kicking me.i fight back of couse.and i accidentally scratch her.she want to kick me,and i grab her leg.but my nails too long.so ya..i'm so sorry cyn, to scratch you.i'll cut my nails in case i hurt you again.but ya,if you bully me,i'll return you double back.so CYNTHIA WEE MIN CI,don't bully me ok,if not i sue you for animal abusing.

reach home at 9.bathe and watch tv.my life is bored ya.daddy came home and give me money.yesterday 10 bucks,todat 14 bucks.haha.but must save up.because i thought of getting someone something.

hmmm.is it too late to say i like you now?maybe i should have brought up my courage to make friend with her earlier.i always don't have the courage to do somethings.in the end i regret.say it now,also no one will believe.maybe i waited too long.i missed the chance.will i ever get the chance?i doubt so.


never wait and don't say it out.
if you like someone,
you got to say it out.
if you keep quiet,
she will never know.
let her know how you feel,
at least you got no regrets.

miss my old friend.

hmmm.came back from school at 12 plus.at 2 plus went out again.because i'm meeting my old friend.it's been a year we last seen each other.aisyah,my old friend for almost 10 years.she's having her holidays and i'm free,so we decide to meet up.

as usual,she's late again.haha.never mind.i wait for awhile won't die.haha..went to get tako balls and eat.we got so much things to tell each other.we update each other about our school,life and relationship.haha.it was about 4 plus,we decide to go her house and chat somemore.haha.she told me her mum still got ask about me.so touched.haha.went to her house,she show me her art work and her project.she's from nafa ya.when i look at her work i can only say"it's damn good".haha.i also shoow her some of my project on youtube.after that we talk about some of our friends.omg,i miss them.seriously,i have not met them for a very long time.my bunch of malay sec sch friends.wonder how are they.

we laugh and joke like how we use to in sec sch.maybe in front of her,i can be the real me.because she know me the longest.i really enjoy talking to her.aisyah,my best friend for life.
6 plus left her house.as usual she send me down and accompany me walk abit.we walk pass our pri sch.lots of memories is in there.the spot we used to sit,the food we used to eat,the field we used to run.the classroom we used to study in.

reach home at 7 plus.while i was in my room,i have many thoughts.i realise how much i have missed in life.i have lost alot of friends in the past 1 year plus.is it too late,for me to find back all the friends i have lost.even though i neglect all my friends,but they have never left my side.when i needed them,they are always there for me.from now on i will treasure friendship more.friends are important ya.so to all my friends out there,my sec sch friends,if got time meet out ya.miss you guys.

that's all for today.

i've make the same mistake again.


i have no idea what to write.i seems lost.so maybe just share a poem ya.it's called "it's so hard"

'it's so hard..'

it's so hard to say 'i love you' and not draw back in tears.

it's so hard to know that you're not there to help me face my fears.

it's so hard to know the phone's at reach,but i cannot hear your voice.

it's so hard to see you laughing when i'm crying deep inside.

it's so hard to just find the feeling and now have to make them hide.

it's so hard to live without you,when i need you the more than words.

it's so hard wanting to scream how much i like you but hold back and not be heard.

it's so hard to go to sleep at night when i cannot dream of you.

it's so hard to think that you might fall in love with someone new.

it's so hard to not start crying when i hear your favourite song.

it's so hard to sit and wonder,where did i go wrong?

it's so hard to live without you,if i only would have known.

i'll never love another,i would rather be alone.


that's all for today.

You're my everything..



didn't went to school today.so slept til 2 plus then wake up..haha..i know i'm lazy..wake up,nothing to do.so sit down and watch tv.5 plus someone call say she want to eat the potato thing.i made once for her.ya..so i go make for her.so nice of me right.it took me around 1 hour to finish.quickly went to bathe and get change,and go her house there to meet her.went to kovan to get bubble tea.then i send her home.


there's someone she like but she die die also don't want to tell me who.haiz..wonder who is the lucky one that she like.confirm not me..haha..i told her i like her,but she don't believe.stil say i liar.wonder why girls always don't believe the truth.so i told her,i'm gonna woo her.


hmm..will you care alot for someone you don't like?will you cook for someone you don't like?when that someone you like tell you that got so and so like her,will you feel jealous?will you do everything for someone you don't like?will you remember everything she say if you don't like her?wil you?i guess alot of people won't even bother about someone they don't like.they don't bother to waste their time on them.


everything i do for you show that i care alot for you.you stand a very important place in my heart.i know there is someone you like.but i stil want you to know that i like you.no matter what the outcome is,i still care for you.i know i don't stand a chance,but i'll still be there for you.


alright.poem of the day.

'reunited'-a two sided peom.

I saw her today.
I saw him today.

It's been a while.
It seems like centuries.

We talked for a while.
He look so fine.

She kept looking at me and i wondered why.
He wouldn't look at me in the eye and i wondered why.

She asked me how i was and i told her about my new girlfriend.
He asked me if i had a boyfriend,and i told him i didn't.

I pretended like i care.
i pretended like i didn't care.

She looked different than she used to be.
He look better than ever.

I gave her a friendly hug goodbye.
We held each other one more time.

And then i went surfing.
And then i went home and cried.

this poem show how different two people behave after a break up.there's always one party that will feel very upset.maybe that's life.
that's all for today.

everything i do,i do it for you...



well,today wake up at 5 plus in the morning.left home at 6.30,because meeting cyn at 7 at her block to send her to school for her exam.after that went to school.reach at 8.15.i thought i was late.because class start at 8.went into the class,then only one student was there.lesson start at 9 where almost all the student arrive.did some video editing today.before we start,teacher show the whole class our previous project,photo story.so glad that teacher say that the project me and jannson do is very nice.haha..feel so happy when someone say good things on stuffs i do.finish today project within half an hour.the rest of the time i sit down there and talk.haha.went for lunch at 11 plus.we had a one and a half hour break.so,me and huimin decide not to go for the afternoon lesson.so we left during lunch.went to AMK central to play lan for 2 hours.then went to meet jervena at her house in little india.today is her birthday,so me and huimin drop at plaza sing to get something for her.actually we wan to get her some roses,but too bad they don't sell the one she like.so i end up buying her her favourite,tiramisu cake.and huimin bought her her favourite sausages.we also bought our lunch.reach there her house at 4 like that.give her what we bought for her.so seems happy ya.slack down there,eat,watch tv and chat.they both treat me like transparent like that.hug in front of me and ya do some stuffs.don't want to go into details,so think for yourself ya..haha..feel very tired,so went to her room and rest.about 6 plus 7,a friend of her bro was in the kitchen cooking something,smell nice.he cook potato meat curry.he first time cook,but it taste nice.went to play dota again at parklane with them,inculding jervena's bro and sis,and her bro friend.play til 11 plus like tat,then i go off.because it's getting late ya.kinda lazy to walk to ps to take train,so took a cab home.reach home at 12.

now is 12.41,and i'm blogging now.tomorrow i'm not going school.pon school.haha..

well same as usual,a poem to share.it called 'alone'. a emo peom i guess.


Alone

i didn't want to admit it,
it was easier to lie,
and hide the hurt and emptiness.
to smile instead of cry.
i didn't want to face the fact.
my life is full of pain,
and i long to stop my heart bleeding,
and maybe smile again.
cause i feel oh-so-forgotten,
so betrayed and so alone.
without a trace of forgiveness,
and no soul to call my own.
i didn't want to admit the fact,
i cannot spread my wings,
and my happiness has melted,
into tears and other things.
it's hard for me to hide the fact,
my wishes have no home,
and return to anguish,
bow my head and cry alone.



that's all for today.

can i cut myself to let it bleed?
will the pain on my body replace the one in my heart?
can i cry out loud like how a kid does?
or am i too old to let out my cries?
should i leave or should i stay?
can someone tell me what to do.
it hurts when you got no chance,
and something is drawing you back.
i hate this feeling.
i love a girl when i was 17.
we were close,
but things draw us back.
i never get a chance to ask her to be mine.
cuz i don't know what will be her answer.
i miss the chance,
i miss it forever.
2 years later,now,
i like someone,
but i don't dare to say.
i keep it away,
and hope she don't see it.
have she ever notice me?
does she feel that i treat her good?
does she ever look at my way,
and does she ever think of me?
can she feel that i like her?
should i confess?
i think not.
i shall keep it away and be her best friend.
in case she don't like me.

normal school day.went to school late because i woke up late.teacher told us that we need to do i short film for our final year project.this time i work with the other group.hopefully we can work well.went home after school.nothing much today.not in the mood to write too much.

i realise one thing,not telling your true feeling out is painful.when you like someone,but you can't tell,it's hard to hide.i wanted to say out loud,"i like you".but i have to keep it inside my heart.

sometime i do wonder myself,do i care for you more then a friend?i don't know what to do.there will be no chance for me i know.i do envy the pther people,at least they stil got 50-50 percent of chance.maybe i could only be your friend,but i hope one day i'm more than a friend to you.i miss a chance of being with someone i like once.maybe you will be the second chance i will miss.

a poem.

'someone special'

There's someone special in my life,
who doesn't know i care.
I wish i could let her know,
but let it show,i wouldn't dare.

i dont even want to risk it,
i don't want to even try.
for if she knew i felt this way,
i'd feel insecure and shy.

i never thought i'd feel this way,
i never thought i'd care.
there's something in that smile of hers,
that makes me stop and stare.

how can i tell if she likes me?
will she ever look my way.
i'll keep my feeling for now,
and save them for another day.

this is just for you.


i'm fond of you.do you know?

suppose to post yesterday.but i did not.because i wasn't at home.i spend the night outside with my friends to celebrate my birthday.thank you guys to spend it with me.

10th nov..my birthday.

woke up at 12 plus.flip open my phone and so happy.got someone wish me happy birthday.it's been years that i recieve this message from my friends.

11.58 Jannson:happy bithday!
12.17 cynthia:happy birthday once again.
13.00 xiong loong:happy birthday! getting older liao hor! i given up asking you to change liao lolx!just hope tat age will waked u.
13.17 huo qiang:hey yin happy birthday long time nv meet le but nv forget u
23.34 a call from siying:hey happy birthday.just find work.so now den gt time to wish you happy birthday.
friendster comment
lijuan:happy birhtday.stay happy always.

i know only got a few people remember it and bother to message and wish me happy birthday,i am already very happy.

went out at 5.because meeting huimin and jervena at 5.45 at bugis.reach there on time,but they are late.once they reach they wish me happy birthday.then they tell me two of their friends coming.i did saw them before at streets fest.so we went to find one of then,ben.after that we walk around to see where to eat our dinner.in the end we chose fish and co.i wanted to pay for it,but huimin and jervena insist on treating me for my birthday.thanks for the dinner.after dinner went to arcade to play,their treat again.i was like so bu hao yi shi.while playing there,the other friend come,virus.see him play the drum thing i was like wah so pro.haha.play till 8 plus we left and go plaza singapura.because meeting antho there.reach there walk walk around and end up in the arcade again.saw jervena and virus play one game,very cute.so me and huimin team up to play.the game is lame,but fun.after tat game our hands are so tired.left after that game.antho haven reach yet.so the five of us went to rocky master to get some drinks and slack there.virus so good.say treat me drink something.even though this is the second time we see each other,but it good that he will treat me something for my birthday.chit chat till 11 plus,antho arrive.then we go park lane play lan.it's been very long i never play dota le.we play til 3 and left to go eat beancurd.wah,the beancurd there is nice.eat finish,ben left first.he want to go home.so the rest of us walk back to ps and get some drinks and slack.in the end we decide to go jervena house.it near there.so took a cab down.reach there at 4 like tat.her room is very nice.me and antho left home at 5 plus to take the first train.went we reach little india station,because jervena house is there,then we realise that the first train start at 6.30.WTH.sit outside talk and wait for it to open.i reach home at about 7.bathe and drop dead on my bed.

it is fun to have lots of friends to celebrate your birthday with you.thanks guys for spending the day with me and ton-ing outside with me.thanks alot.


11th nov

woke up at 12 plus again by a message from cyn.asj=king me which side of the bus direction should she take to go bugis.arrggh..
i only slept for less den 7 hours,and i was waken up by a message.never mind.wash up,and eat my brunch.watch tv for a while and went back to room and take a nap.went out at 5,meeting cyn for dinner at bukit batok,because she meet her friend there.reach the at 6,i waited for 1 hour plus for her.because her friend haven left.went to have dinner at burger king.send her home after that.took train to AMK and take 136 from there to her place.like to go out with her,because i can disturb her.haha.i reach home at about 10 plus.

it's 11 plus now and i am in front of my lap top writing blog.tomorrow still got to go school.sigh.i shall end here now,if not my post will be damn long.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

eve of my birthday

hahas.today is the eve of my birthday.didnt went to school because meeting my dear friend cyn.she cant make it tomorrow,so we went out today ya.suppose to meet her at her block there at 1 den go orchard.then she suddenly message me say meet at hougang mall.ya,so i went there to meet her loh.she's late for 15 min i think.she brought me a cake.aww,so nice of her.seriously,she look really pretty today.with a dress i think,and blue contact lens.really pretty.so we went down to orchad Kbox to sing.haha.she sing very cute and nice ya.recorded it down.we sang from 2 to 5.she was suppose to meet her friend,but her friend cannot make it.so ya,we went to walk walk around.den she gave me a card.a birthday card.i very long never recieve a birthday card le.so touched.went to taka,bring her to the place where they sell her fav cartoon character i think.thought of buying her the soft toy,but not enough cash,because tomorrow i going out ya.i was looking around,den this display thing caught my eyes.it's a merry christmas thing.i think she will like it,so i buy it for her.take it as a early christmas gift ya.went to esplanade,sit sit around and chat chat.took some pictures using her phone.i regret for not bring my camera today.if not i can have a copy of the photo.sob.chat til 8 plus den we go marina square.go shop shop around til 9 plus.send her home after tat.while waiting for train,we play play around.like kids ya.she so childish..haha..

thanks for the day today.really enjoy myself.thanks for the card and cake ya.



as usual.i'm going to share a poem today.it's called 'Illusion'


Illusion

i thought i saw you looking at me,
i thought i saw you stare.
do you know i think you're cute?
i like the look you bare.
are my eyes deceiving me,
when i see you standing there?
are you playingtricks on me,
just to prove i care?

are you an illusion,
is it only in my mind?
do you look at me?
as i do you,
to see if you can find,
a little bit of interest,
a stolen glance your way?
will you come to talk to me,
or watch me day to day?

you make have taken notice,
that i'm not very shy.
i like to tell my friends,
when i like a certain girl.
i do not mean to scare you,
but i thought of you alot.
and now i simply want to know,
do you like me,too---or not?


this is a good poem to tell a girl how you feel and you can use it to confess her ya..haha..


few more minutes to my birthday.happy birthday to me.wonder how many people remember my birthday.

with honor

hmmm..nothing special today.stay at home and rot.haha.because it's public holiday ya.tomorrow meet friend to go kbox.maybe saturday go for a midnight movie and ton outside.because it my birthday.but must see whether my classmate free or not.message her,she didnt reply.call her,phone switch off.haix.

happen to flip through my notebooks today.and remember i got lots of nice poems in it.i like to read and i also like to copy down those words or poems which i feel that it's nice.so today share one out ya.the title is called 'with honor'


With Honor

If i have to be your best friend,
If that's all that i can get,
then i'll take the job with honor,
I'll be the best one yet.
I'll offer you my shoulder,
I'll show you how i care,
I'll be there when you need me,
I'm not going anywhere.
If i have to be your best friend,
The one who hears you cry,
then i'll take the job with honor.
I'll take the job with pride,
My love for you is stronger,
Than you will ever know.
but for you to ever love me,
i'll have to let it go.
You need time to find your purpose,
you need time to sort your thoughts.
But when the course has ended,
and the race is finally run.
Remember it's your best friend,
who has loved you from day one.


this poem is nice and i like it.who ever see this blog,i hope you like it too.

Normal school day.knida bored.regret going for the afternoon lesson.the lesson is simply bored.doze off in class with my friend.she and i sleep like nobody is around.teacher is right in front of us,and yet we do that.who give the f*** bout it ya.during lunch time,i was like paying for this friend.she forget to withdraw.den had to pay for her first.stupid friend of mine.the best thing is we bluff our classmates that we are couple.and they was like,"huh?really?"haha.even the new teachers was like huh too..it's fun making our classmates think alot.haha.
today i very good.went home straight after school.but actually is no one want to slack then got no choice but to go home.reach home,bathe and i was like damn tired.drop dead on bed.my bro cook fried rice,ask me eat i say later.but when i wake up,i was looking for the rice,then he tell me he eat finish already.WTH.so i nd up without eating dinner tonight.sobs.
tomorrow is a public holiday.No school equal can sleep longer.this few nights didnt have enough sleep.so tomorrow must sleep back what i lost haha

My birthday is coming.as usual.on actual day got to spend alone.the day before might have someone to celebrate with me.

i always wonder why didnt my birthday wish come true.is it very diffcult for them to come true?i didnt ask for much.all i ask for is at least someone remember my birthday and celebrate with me.if they cant make it,a simply 'Happy birthday' is good enough. it's lonely to spend birthday alone.i wish the ones i love can be happy.but it always end up the other way. i guess it's hard for it to come true ya. i guess my sec sch buddies also forget my birthday already. cant blame them,i also didnt manage to remember theirs.

sometime i do envy those rich people.they can pay someone to spend their birthday with them. at least they have someone. my parent do remember,but all they do is give me money and ask me go out with friends.they didnt even say a happy birthday to me.

alot of people like birthday.but...i wish mine never come.at least i wont feel lonely.

my wish for this year..i wish i have someone who really care for me.i wish next year i have someone to spend my birthday with.i wish the ones i love can be happy and not sad.


simply wish,hard to come true.

Broken wings

haha..first time write a blog ya..new thing for me.not sure will i always update it or not..hahaha..i know myself that i won't be that hard working to blog every single day ya.so try to ya..hmmmm...lets see what happen today den.school was alright.start early today.haha..but i got to school late.the best thing is,when i reach school,it start to rain heavily and i didn't bring umbrella.i was like wat the ****...stay at the bus stop,hoping the rain will get smaller so i can walk into school.but it get heavier and heavier.was at the bus stop for like 15 min,then i was so luckily to see my classmate.he was late too,but he got umbrella.so share with him his umbrella to walk into school.teacher was nt there yet when i reach.so kinda piss,because we need to wait for him to come ya.he came around 10 mins later.went in then start lesson.did some editing.i was doing half way then i accidently click to close window button.that's it.i didn't save my work and everything is gone.i had to redo it.arrgghhh...teacher gave us 2 hr lunch break.longer lunch break is equal to nothing to do.after tat went back to class and got this guy which is a ex student.he's a so called director.he show us some short he made.after watching,i feel like doing one short flim.it will be fun..hahaha..class end at 4 i think..somwhere there.came back sengkang and slack with my friends til 5 plus 6 then go home.reach home,bathe and watch tv.8 plus my mum came back from work.the minute she step into the house,she start nagging me..it's kinda piss off when someone keep nagging.so i talk back.we end up having a fight.i wonder why cant she just leave me alone.let me have my peace.i wonder is this my home?or it's just a place for me to eat and sleep.the only place tat no one bother me is my room.it's the only place where i can have peace.

sometime i wish i could just break free.give me a pair of wing to let me fly.to let me leave this place.do i really belong here?i wonder.

i want to get a tattoo on my back.but no money.=( if i got the money,i will want to do a pair of broken wing.because i'm kinda unwanted ya.

i'll end it here.